Life

梦里朋友告诉我,怀孕时宝宝可以拿出来,再放回去的.我就把宝宝取了出来.过了一会,宝宝哭着要回去,嘴巴一动一动的,我想可能是饿了.我把宝宝放到两腿间,宝宝急不可待地忘里爬.后剩下脚,我推了一下就进去了.但很担心老这样操作会不会伤着宝宝,于是查了资料,曰: 怀孕其间,400 次出入是正常的. 把宝宝放回去后才发现忘了看宝宝象她大鼻子的爹还是小鼻子的娘. 后悔.梦到家乡,过年,还有幼时的伙伴.

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/index.htm

This is the pregnancy week by week, it has category about your baby, things you should concern and your baby's Dad.

Everytime when I read to the last time of Tips for mom’s partner, my tear will come out.

昨天打电话问护士,她说如果每天能感觉到一点动就可以了.我们宝宝刚开始横着的.护士说可能变姿势了.现在一天就感觉到几次.昨晚半夜醒来,宝宝动了一阵,今早有没动静了.

我问我妈为什么好多女的小孩吸不出奶,需要挤.妈妈说当小女孩生下来不久,要挤奶头,(小孩的奶头,我当时听了半天才弄清).等把白色的东西挤出来,将来她生小孩时,奶就很顺畅.妈妈对我们三姐妹都如是操作. 两个姐姐的奶都很好.不过听起来怪怪的,你们听说过吗?

Two creations. Everything created twice, the blueprint, the realization.

This is like doing an experiment. Should have an goal in mind before doing anything. What are you want to prove? How are your going to prove it? What is the significance.

Always start every endevour with a clear purpose.

Tired. sleepy. What is the result of the superbowl game?
Good night to myself.

Like I mentioned earlier, this is something I really got to learn. I am so easy to be influence by other people, the outside world. Difficult to creat a inner peace, undisturbed by the outside feedback. Used to think it is because that I am still young. Now it seems more like a habit culvatating.

I learned that you need to carry your own weather---social weather. Reactive people are victim to the weather/mode. Between what happens to us and our response is a space. Our power of freedom to choose how to respond lies in our happiness. It is like a water and coke bottle. The former has no change when you shake it and open it, the latter one does. This is an example of proactive versus reactive.

There is big circle of concern from the questioner, there is small circle of Influence. When you respond while focus on the circle of influence, which is the things in your control, it enlarges. On the other hand, if you focus on the circle of concern, the question, which is beyond your control, you circle of influence shrinks.

Need to practice this.

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Always imagin a baby boy following me around. After this, start to imagin my girl, like a flower, baby talk to me. Thinking about name Jade, Scarlet and Tia, now with peony, etc. Still like the Jade most. I decide Jade before we know the sex. I love Jade, beautiful color, the Jade green can melt my heart. the feeling of Jade is unbelivable smooth. Imagin our baby like that. My love, all goes to this unborn baby. My heart fill with tenderness toward that tiny baby. Ultrasound showing she moves her arm like a boxer. Everyday feeling the baby move always make me smile. Every single kick of her.
Could not wait to know the baby sex. Now can't wait to see my baby.

Feel pregnancy is a constant worry to me. In the beginning worried about the baby survival due to the last miscarriage, later worried about baby health. Baby move, everthing.
Really got to stop worrying. Let the baby be happy with me.

baby Jade is only a few weeks. Went to the Mozart REQUIEM with friend Yufei. Before I went to the concert, I listened to the CD, which I borrowed from friend Robert, many times. But the live one is so much better. Live--dynamic, has more life to it. Maybe that's the reason we should go to the concert, although the price is enought to buy more than 1 CD.

I went with Elena. Thought it was string quartet, turned out it is quitar. It is one family. One member hurt his finger on the way to TAMU so he didn't perform. quartet change to tri???.
It is pretty good. Specially the beginning Vavadi songs, very melodic.

baby move a lot. Must like it.
This is our baby's 2nd concert

It is a program of promotion of Indian classical music to youth association. The beginning is pretty exciting , because it is so different. A singer, an drum player and another guy, they all sitting on the floor. there is a girl in the back, the whole more than 1 hour she just repeat one thing, unbelieveble.
My excitament went down because I don't understand what she is singing. Enjoy the drum a lot.
Don't feel baby move much, just a few times. Wonder whether baby like it.
Left early, everything sounds the same if you don't know the language.