Sunday, December 24, 2006
bored and sad
The day before Christmas, seems everybody busy, less people on internet. Look at a few posts on international marrige. Her husband has started to talk to the baby at 10 weeks. Now I am 16 weeks, keep asking my husband to shoot some video for me, he just has no time.
The whole weekend, just walk around the house, doing laundry stuff, time just pass by. Winter time the day is short while when you are pregnant, it feels even shorter. Too much sleep, too easy to feel tired so have to sit.
I can't sleep very well, very easy to wake up and takes a long long time to go back to sleep. So 3rd time when I am here in usa I wondering around the house or reading at 3 or 4 am. The last 2 times all due to jetlag.
I don't know, sitting here, feel so depressed. No family around, no friends. Don't want to call anyway. Listen to old songs, the ones I used to listen when I was in high school, the ones my sister used to sing for me numerous times, the songs my lover used to sing for me, everything turns so sad.
A lot of work to do, just too lazy to do anything. Getting hungry again. another issue, beside sleep, take care of my stomack takes a lot of time too, specially now no restaurant open.
Have a lot of words to say to my baby, about me, about my determination for him/her to learn chinese, my love for the baby. have been rehearsaled many times in my heart. Feel a baby myself, try to let myself grow, so that I can feel the materny love to my baby.
The whole weekend, just walk around the house, doing laundry stuff, time just pass by. Winter time the day is short while when you are pregnant, it feels even shorter. Too much sleep, too easy to feel tired so have to sit.
I can't sleep very well, very easy to wake up and takes a long long time to go back to sleep. So 3rd time when I am here in usa I wondering around the house or reading at 3 or 4 am. The last 2 times all due to jetlag.
I don't know, sitting here, feel so depressed. No family around, no friends. Don't want to call anyway. Listen to old songs, the ones I used to listen when I was in high school, the ones my sister used to sing for me numerous times, the songs my lover used to sing for me, everything turns so sad.
A lot of work to do, just too lazy to do anything. Getting hungry again. another issue, beside sleep, take care of my stomack takes a lot of time too, specially now no restaurant open.
# posted by sunshine @ 2:13 PM 
